Ephesians 4:2

"Be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other's faults because of your love." - Ephesians 4:2

I have had this verse posted on my memo board for over a year now.  I had it memorized since the week I posted it and usually when I memorize a verse I take it down and replace it with a new one to memorize.  I just cannot seem to take this one down.  Probably because it is so hard for me to follow through with it.  I am sure for people who do not know me that well or just know me from school or church see me this way and I hope people think of me this way.  I even see myself being this way most of the time but there are occassions where I struggle deeply with this.

I struggle mostly with being patient.  If my family had to use 100, even 1000, words to describe me I highly doubt "patient" would be one of them.  I am not patient at all.  And it breaks my heart that even when I try so hard to be patient I catch myself time and time again rushing.  Rushing to get out the door to school, to church, to anywhere.  I cannot seem to get a grip on being patient.  I always feel rushed, which leads me to being stressed, which leads to impatience.  And this verse says to be patient with people because you love them.  Well I love my family and I want to follow God's Word so why is being patient so hard for me?

Lord help me to continue to be humble and gentle and please show me how to be patient.  You are so patient with me Lord and I want nothing more than to be an example for my family.  Help me be patient with them while making allowances for their faults because I love them as they make many allowances for my faults because they love me.  Amen.